I could wear my pain like armor and shield myself from the world. To each person who came near me, warnings could be hurled. “Stay away from me, I’m hurting; come near and I will bring you down.” I’d let them know they can not save me, and teach them to walk by without a sound.
Or I could wear my pain like a mask and paint a smile on my face. No one would ever know how much you hurt me, until it surfaced in its haste. It would taint every relationship I sought to have, like a ghost risen from a grave. I’d let them know, “You cannot save me, so perhaps you should think twice before you stay.”
I could blame all those around me for the pain someone else has caused. Or I could stuff it way down inside of me and blame myself till I am raw. But perhaps I will say I forgive you for hurting me this way. I will lay the blame where it belongs and know that the issues were yours not mine that day.
You were not perfect, you were not who I needed you to be. Perhaps, if you could, you would say you were sorry for loading this burden on me. I choose to not let it continue to go on hurting me. For I am stronger that you thought I would ever grow up to be.
http://www.theresadodaro.com Author of The Tin Box Trilogy